I am here and I am a mess of tears and sadness.
I just watched a video. “It Could Happen to You”
I wept loudly as I watched.
I wept because my entire family adored my ex.
I wept at the pain of being able to relate to being threatened by my exes father and mother and being blamed for her being a lesbian.
I wept because I understand what it’s like to love someone so deeply and endlessly and to always fear physical harm from their family.
I wept because I sat at a hospital while she was in surgery totally ignored and pushed aside because I was not her family.
I am still weeping for Shane because he experienced my biggest fear. He lost the love of his life to death.
I wept because my entire involvement with my ex I knew I would go through the same thing if death ever took her from me.
Thankfully (I can say that now after time has passed and the pain has eased somewhat) my ex left me after the death of my father and step mother. She returned to her family and rejoined the straight heterosexual masses and she’s getting married in July. She will never have to worry about the hate and fear I experienced during our relationship. She has all the rights Shane, Tom and I do NOT have.
I’m happy she’s alive. I’m glad she’s getting married. I plan to consider it in my future (love you doll) but I’m terrified. I don’t want to live through it again. I don’t want to experience the ultimate pain Shane is living.
I completely expect this kind of behavior from the straight world. I’ve lived with it all my life. What stuns me is a few lesbian friends of mine on facebook post negative comments regarding legalizing same-sex marriage and I always cringe because it makes me wonder how they stand so firmly against something as important as love.
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